It’s so unbelievably hard to struggle with something and not knowing what it is that is hurting you. I’ve been to a psychiatric hospital and have had numerous therapists and psychiatrists but it seems so hopeless after a while. “Getting better” is a term forced into me by my friends and family. I haven’t decided for myself that I want to get better. I want to stop hurting the people around me. The only thing that keeps me going is the promise of my future and sunny days.