I recently attempted suicide..and well I failed (thankfully). My main trigger for this to happen was that I let these things that shouldn't really affect me , affect me. For example: gossip, backstabbing, feeling lonely --even when you have so many people around to help you. My parents helped me through so much. I took some time off of school and started going to a therapist and meditating daily. Meditation really helped me. I'm someone who has a lot of love to give but sometimes when I don't get it back, it messes me up. I learned how to love someone unconditionally and without expecting anything in return. ALSO giving love is the best thing you can do as it helps the person you're giving the love to and it helps you gain inner peace as well. Anxiety was a really big part of this situation too , it gives you so much pain and when it gets too much you want give up 'dealing' with it. Suicide isn't about "i want to die and not live this life anymore" but instead its more about "i want to run away from all this pain my life is giving me because I can't handle it anymore". There is ALWAYS a better solution. My dad made me realize that there is a limitless list of solutions that can help you - but you need to reach out and ask for help. Asking for help is something I unfortunately didn't do and it was because I didn't want to stress my parents or make people think i'm a crazy person OR hurt anyone. The reality is that by not reaching out and eventually ending up doing something by which you could hurt yourself or take your life, the people who care about you will get hurt even more than you could ever imagine. Now, i'm not trying to make you feel guilty about having suicidal tendencies (its okay) but i am trying to say that it's not the best way out because there are a million more ways you can escape or overcome whatever you are going through. Your life is going to get better and there is always hope. Distract yourself or if you're into meditation then meditate because trust me this always helps. Please just give your life another chance. Keep living.