I was always the person to keep a crooked smile on my face even through all the pain and trauma I’ve been through in my life.My mother abandoned me when I was only two years old and that really messed with my trust issues and things of that nature. A lot of times I feel like I’m unworthy of life and I want to end my own. I know the pain and I try to help others so they won’t have to experience as much of the pain as I did . Sometimes it gets hard to keep sane and to keep going every day with nobody to vent to or talk about it with.I have acknowledged I need help and I want the pain to stop.