I always thought of suicide as a kind of weakness. Then one day I had a falling out with a friend who I deeply cared about and that just started something for me that I couldn't handle anymore. There were days where I just wanted to give it all up. It's been going good for a few months and then I had another falling out with a friend. This time I made the mistake. A very bad one I admit. It's been haunting me ever since. I have reoccurring suicidal thoughs and very low lows. Sometimes life seemed like a burden because nothing seemed to go right. Somewhere in between I got very close to God and God helps me. When I have problems I talk to God first. I surrounded myself with people who care about me and people who make me smile. Still I want to fight this fight so starting in October I will go to therapy to really work on my mental health.