I honestly don't know how to live anymore. When I look at myself, I see someone that is not me and I can't change it no matter how hard I try. nobody knows what i am going through, and nobody really cares. i wish I could admit that I need help, but im afraid that no one would care....or maybe I am afraid everyone would care too much. I'm not really sure. all I know is that it sucks and I don't want to deal with it anymore.