"When someone you love so much doesn't love you enough to fight for you, it really makes you question your self-worth." I was never loved properly when I was little and so growing up, I always believed that perhaps I just don't deserve love even though it's the thing I want to the most. I made horrible friends, my family was a mess. I just attached and loved so easily but it felt like every time I loved someone, they would leave. Due to my turbulent childhood, I developed anxiety, was often depressed and thought about ending it all. I didn't realise that these were mental health issues until a few years ago so I wanted to do something about it. I went through therapy, hypnosis, workshops and so much learning and self discovery. I was better, I AM better. But then it happened again, someone I love so much decided he can't be in this with me even though he loves me. Once again, this feeling of not being enough spread through my bones; it hurts so much. But something else is also with me this time, a voice and a gut feeling that I deserve better. I deserve someone who's sure about me and who will love me without questioning. I KNOW I will find this person because I AM worth it. I really believe it this time. I guess I really am getting better.