I always thought if I just disappeared, everyone would be happier. I have lived with undiagnosed depression for at least 11 years of my life. Post-partum really escalated it and brought it to light. my husband recently stepped out on me and I have started therapy. I am learning that I am worth love and care. Most days have been better, but some days I still revert to not being good enough. I want to be enough. I want to not feel like a failure. I have never thought about ending my life, but I think it would be better if I wasn't around. I am thankful for my steps in getting better, I just wish everyday was positive and the set backs didn't happen.