2 years ago, I was in an abusive relationship. mental and physic. I've started to show PTSD symptom last year and I went to therapist. I could not fall asleep for weeks because the nightmare haunted me. He was chasing me in my dream (literally). I remember woke up out of my breath. I could not forgive my self at that moment. I cut all the ties I had with him, blocked all contacts related to him. And just few months ago, I decided to text him and say I was sorry for everything too. I finally forgive my self and living the best time of my life.