I have really bad anxiety and trauma from 2019, the events happened in my house, in my room. Late at night if I stared at that wall too long the feelings would come rushing back and it was like I was there again. I am currently suffering a body focused repetitive behavior disorder, skin picking. Most days I feel alone, with hope one day I stop literally tearing myself apart. Nobody knows about it. I often try to forget it and hide behind fancy terms like body focused repetitive behavior, when it really is simple. I’m in pain and no complicated diction can describe it.