I have been struggling with my mental health ever since I was 13. I am still fighting through them even today. I used to went through the hardest drought when I was 13-14. I have went through thoughts of wanting to not exist and feeling like the world would be better off without me from what was happening at the time. I did not understood what I was going through before but I know I was still really little. I was bullied emotionally a lot, but things actually got better along the way. I actually found real friends. My family and I got better. So was my outlook in life. I’m still here at 22. The transition from 18-22 was the most painful as I entered the real world. It was confusing and conflicting at the same time. Today, I am not in a good mental health state but I am just very grateful I am not alone. I now understand a little better what I was going through than I ever did before but I also know that I have more to learn. I started to do journaling and taking time to be much much kinder to myself at home, work and school. Finding a peaceful space even at work and have tea breaks. I am slowly being alright with the things that used to leave me so sad and questions like why? like my height as I am really tiny in height, 141cm. I think that is a start. I get to come home and laugh with my entire family even when at work it feels hard. I am not at all in good mental state now but at least, there is still a lighthouse. I still have my god, Allah, who has never taken leave off me. All I want to say is that things can actually get better and feel better. I know that it will take really slow but I know that I am so loved. Taking a break off my phone really helps. Your real life needs you. Your mind, body and soul needs you. Be with them, with gentleness.