Hi. I thought I had things under control. Everything was fine one moment. But I knew I was stressed. I grew up striving to be the perfect child in achieving good grades. I remember my mother yelled at me for being lazy. Few months back I am considered a respected 👩🏻‍⚕️, however things changed after I quit my job. Now, after seeing several psychiatrists, I am taking meds also known as happy pills everyday. Depression is scary it makes you feel alone. Also there’s suicidal thoughts as well because life is just dark. I just got a job now but i am unsure how long it will last. Adulting causes my depression.