I'm a 19 y.o girl, I have a broken family. My dad left me when I was 11 because my mom couldn't love him anymore. They were fighting every day, sometimes my dad thrown things so I could be silent and I couldn't protect my mom. But I still love my dad, and when they were divorce, no one told me until I found out by myself. I knew it after one year later, and I never stop crying because of that. Months later, my mom married a guy and never talked about it until I realized the day of their marriage. I felt so broken inside, I really don't know what should I do. I got bullied at elementary school for 5 years and after that my mom divorced and married a guy that I never know he's gonna be my step father. And after they married, my step father did sexual harassment to me. It happened when I was on junior high school until I graduated from senior high school (12-18 y.o I think). And after that I decided to moved out to Yogyakarta to continue my education to the university, so no one will know if I did some bad things to my body because I don't know how to escape from those pain and sadness. I cut myself three times with a cutter, I did over-sleep and sometimes I got insomnia so I had to drink an allergic medicine so I could sleep, because it has some sleepiness effect. And I always feeling empty, lost, and lonely- no matter how crowd the situation, no matter how much I tried to make friends. And I still feel these negative emotions for 8 years. I'm so grateful to find this website, I could talk what I'm feeling because I feel ashamed to talk with someone directly.