I have accepted that i will never be happy.so i just continue life living, but feeling dead inside.people see me laugh and smile but i have pain and sorrow inside. im taking meds, which i thought was working well until now. i have taken different types of meds nothing is helping. i have depression, anxiety and panic attacks.depression started when i was a teenager, anxiety issues at 19. i did not come from a broken family and i was not abused as a child . and now im to the point where i think about ending my life. but i dont because my 8 year old son pops up in my mind and i dont want to leave him alone.It feels good release these thoughts.