I am 16 years old, gender fluid, and tentatively diagnosed with depression. I guess I’m lucky; I did not wait to speak to my doctor about feeling overwhelmed, tired, and occasionally suicidal, and I have family, friends, and an amazing girlfriend to support me.
But I don’t feel lucky. I started taking my medication relatively recently, and it should take some time to have an effect. There are many days when I feel overwhelmed and hopeless. There are days when my gender dysphoria only worsens the feeling, because I don’t have the resources to at least bind my chest and feel better. There are days when I have anxiety attacks.
I'm getting the treatment I need. More to the point, I can make it through another day. And right now I think that's all I need to do.
Right now, I’m working on seeing the positives of my situation and acknowledging my luck. I haven't acted on a suicidal impulse, and I don't think I will. I'm getting the treatment I need. More to the point, I can make it through another day. And right now I think that's all I need to do.